“But if you are afraid
to go down, go… down to the camp, and you will hear what they say; and
afterward your hands will be strengthened” Judges 7:10.
In
January, 2007 God laid upon my heart the task of finishing and having published
a book my 99 year old grandmother had been working on over the past 15 years. I had only been pursuing a deeper
relationship with God for a year and felt extremely inadequate for the calling. I had
dabbled in writing at the Spirit’s enabling but was certainly no match for this
task. I went to visit her in the
assisted living home to speak to her about the completion of her book. She was overwhelmed with the fact that God
always fulfills what He promises His children.
With her blessing I looked at the bookcase which housed random years of
journals. They were in no particular order
so I just grabbed the top journal and began reading different months of
writings. I felt like a trespasser onto
her property until I read an entry she had recorded on July 31, 1997. She wrote, “At hand, however is the completion of this book - that is doing my
part on it. The financing, getting an
agent, getting it published and distributed is God’s work. He has promised to take care of it. I rest on Him.” It was at this point I realized that God had
given me both an invitation and privilege to be upon this holy ground and to
play a part in fulfilling His promise to her.
Like Gideon, God went before me and planted confirmations and
encouragement that would strengthen my heart for the task.
It
can be scary to face our callings but callings were never meant to be
easy. Some callings are heartbreaking as we are
asked to walk in life with the loss of a loved one. Some callings are brutally challenging as we
are asked to care for a disabled child.
Some callings are daunting as we are asked to lead a huge
congregation. Callings require faith…they
require a humble heart…they demand constant knee service. But like Gideon, when we are called we can
depend on God to be our hope and confidence.
He will go before us, lead us into the task required, show us the way to
be victorious and strengthen our hearts when we feel dispirited.
There
were times along the way while finishing her book that I needed those precious
confirmations. It was so dear that God
used the written words of my grandmother to comfort my soul and walk along
beside me through her journals.
So if you are anxious about the journey for which you have been called, 'Go down'...to your knees and you will hear what He has to say and afterward your heart will be strengthened.
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